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always singing,
tescille
Friday, November 27, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Glenda Cole
May 3, 1947 – November 19, 2009
Glenda Faye Newcomb Cole, 62, of Bryan, passed away on Thursday, November 19, 2009 at St. Joseph Regional Health Center.
Visitation will be from 5 to 7 p.m. Sunday, November 22, at Memorial Funeral Chapel in Bryan.
Services are set for 2 p.m. Monday, November 23, at First Baptist Church in Bryan. Interment will follow at Reliance Cemetery.
Glenda Cole was born on May 3, 1947, in Bryan, Texas to James Elmer Newcomb and Lucille Geraldean Henderson. She graduated from Stephen F. Austin High School in 1965.
Glenda was well known as an artistic event planner in the Bryan/College Station area. She was involved with many charitable organizations including the St. Joseph Foundation, the American Cancer Society, and a community volunteer for The Theater Company.
She also devoted much of her time to the Bryan High School Choir for many years, creating elaborate and memorable productions. Glenda was also involved in the Easter Pageant and music ministry of Central Baptist Church in Bryan.
Since 1977, Glenda has been a member of First Baptist Church in Bryan, where she served in the music and deaf ministries.
Her parents preceded her in death.
Survivors include her son and daughter-in-law, Grant and Jennifer Cole, of Freeport; two daughters and a son-in-law, Tescille and Steve Riser, of Tomball, and Linda Joy Rosier, of Bryan; her brother and sister-in-law, Ben and Connie Newcomb, of Mt. Vernon; her sister, Geneva Newcomb Cole, of Bedias; four grandchildren, John and Mikey Cole, and Jacob and BaiLee Rosier; and numerous nephews, nieces and many dear friends.
In lieu of flowers memorial may be made to the Glenda Cole Memorial Fund, 7350 Mesco Dr. Bryan, TX 77808.
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May 3, 1947 – November 19, 2009
Glenda Faye Newcomb Cole, 62, of Bryan, passed away on Thursday, November 19, 2009 at St. Joseph Regional Health Center.
Visitation will be from 5 to 7 p.m. Sunday, November 22, at Memorial Funeral Chapel in Bryan.
Services are set for 2 p.m. Monday, November 23, at First Baptist Church in Bryan. Interment will follow at Reliance Cemetery.
Glenda Cole was born on May 3, 1947, in Bryan, Texas to James Elmer Newcomb and Lucille Geraldean Henderson. She graduated from Stephen F. Austin High School in 1965.
Glenda was well known as an artistic event planner in the Bryan/College Station area. She was involved with many charitable organizations including the St. Joseph Foundation, the American Cancer Society, and a community volunteer for The Theater Company.
She also devoted much of her time to the Bryan High School Choir for many years, creating elaborate and memorable productions. Glenda was also involved in the Easter Pageant and music ministry of Central Baptist Church in Bryan.
Since 1977, Glenda has been a member of First Baptist Church in Bryan, where she served in the music and deaf ministries.
Her parents preceded her in death.
Survivors include her son and daughter-in-law, Grant and Jennifer Cole, of Freeport; two daughters and a son-in-law, Tescille and Steve Riser, of Tomball, and Linda Joy Rosier, of Bryan; her brother and sister-in-law, Ben and Connie Newcomb, of Mt. Vernon; her sister, Geneva Newcomb Cole, of Bedias; four grandchildren, John and Mikey Cole, and Jacob and BaiLee Rosier; and numerous nephews, nieces and many dear friends.
In lieu of flowers memorial may be made to the Glenda Cole Memorial Fund, 7350 Mesco Dr. Bryan, TX 77808.
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Friday, November 20, 2009
Momma lost her battle with cancer on November 18, 2009. She had been diagnosed just 3-4 weeks earlier with Stage IV Renal Cell Cancer. God's force of nature is gone from our physical world, but continues to live life brand new and rejoicing with the saints in the glory of God's heavenly kingdom. We praise God that her pain and suffering did not last long. She was ready everyday of her life to go home. Death had no sting for this child of God who lived larger than life. Thank you to the friends and family who provided comfort to Grant, Linda Joy and me yesterday during our grief and celebration.
always singing,
tescille
always singing,
tescille
Thursday, November 19, 2009
This morning, while Mom was awake, I sang to her To God Be the Glory - one of her many favorite hymns. On the chorus, she began mouthing the words with me....with emphasis as only Glenda Cole can. At 6am, she made that old hymn come alive. Singing under a bipap machine with energy. That's energy and hope rolled into 1 package.
To God be the glory
Great things He hath done
So loved He the world
That He gave us His Son
Who yielded His life
An atonement for sins
And opened the lifegate
That all may go in!
Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord!
Let the earth hear His voice!
Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord!
Let the people rejoice!
O, come to the Father
Through Jesus the Son
And give Him the glory great things He hath done!
always singing,
tescille
To God be the glory
Great things He hath done
So loved He the world
That He gave us His Son
Who yielded His life
An atonement for sins
And opened the lifegate
That all may go in!
Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord!
Let the earth hear His voice!
Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord!
Let the people rejoice!
O, come to the Father
Through Jesus the Son
And give Him the glory great things He hath done!
always singing,
tescille
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Tonight, Dr. Scott said a few more days of ICU are needed before moving Mom to a regular room. Then afterwards, she'll be assigned to in-patient rehabilitation - learning to re-use muscle groups. She is doing a little bit right now - raising her arms above her head, grabbing the bedrails to pull herself up, crossing her ankles, turning her neck more, etc.. When she is off the bipap machine, her breathing is very labored and they have almost re-tubed her twice in 48 hours. But the respiratory therapist seems to think the bipap is the best thing for her now. If she has to be re-tubed (ventilator), then we take a step backwards.
Mom is heavily sedated for pain management and she needs rest. She is most lucid from 9:30-10:00am. Thank you to all of her visitors today: Kay McW., Paco, Janet N., Marilyn Y., and Charmen C.. She loves her visitors.
From Psalm 71
14.But I will keep on hoping for you to help me; I will praise you more and more.
15.I will tell everyone about your righteousness. All day long I will proclaim your saving power, for I am overwhelmed by how much you have done for me.
16.I will praise your mighty deeds, O Sovereign LORD. I will tell everyone that you alone are just and good.
17.O God, you have taught me from my earliest childhood, and I have constantly told others about the wonderful things you do.
18.Now that I am old and gray, do not abandon me, O God. Let me proclaim your power to this new generation, your mighty miracles to all who come after me.
19.Your righteousness, O God, reaches to the highest heavens. You have done such wonderful things. Who can compare with you, O God?
20.You have allowed me to suffer much hardship, but you will restore me to life again and lift me up from the depths of the earth.
21.You will restore me to even greater honor and comfort me once again.
22.Then I will praise you with music on the harp, because you are faithful to your promises, O God. I will sing for you with a lyre, O Holy One of Israel.
23.I will shout for joy and sing your praises, for you have redeemed me.
Pray for comfort, resilience, and the grasp of hope.
always singing,
tescille
Mom is heavily sedated for pain management and she needs rest. She is most lucid from 9:30-10:00am. Thank you to all of her visitors today: Kay McW., Paco, Janet N., Marilyn Y., and Charmen C.. She loves her visitors.
From Psalm 71
14.But I will keep on hoping for you to help me; I will praise you more and more.
15.I will tell everyone about your righteousness. All day long I will proclaim your saving power, for I am overwhelmed by how much you have done for me.
16.I will praise your mighty deeds, O Sovereign LORD. I will tell everyone that you alone are just and good.
17.O God, you have taught me from my earliest childhood, and I have constantly told others about the wonderful things you do.
18.Now that I am old and gray, do not abandon me, O God. Let me proclaim your power to this new generation, your mighty miracles to all who come after me.
19.Your righteousness, O God, reaches to the highest heavens. You have done such wonderful things. Who can compare with you, O God?
20.You have allowed me to suffer much hardship, but you will restore me to life again and lift me up from the depths of the earth.
21.You will restore me to even greater honor and comfort me once again.
22.Then I will praise you with music on the harp, because you are faithful to your promises, O God. I will sing for you with a lyre, O Holy One of Israel.
23.I will shout for joy and sing your praises, for you have redeemed me.
Pray for comfort, resilience, and the grasp of hope.
always singing,
tescille
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Grief is not just for death. It is also for the living when another is not their normal self. For many, Glenda Cole meets a need (or many) in their life. She's not dead yet, but she is definitely not the same person we know and love so dearly. Right now. You need to know that if you come to visit. Seeing her like this - it is very tough. It is not the same.
And yet, she is still very present. She knows that the pain meds are creating hallucinations, and that she is running at about 20-30% right now. She knows what time it is, and where she wants you to stand to talk to her. She know the date and where she is, but is beginning to grasp the idea that ICU is lasting longer than she would like. She still makes jokes, sings songs, is bossy, loves prayer, and loves to visit with people. She is the same yet different.
I feel like I am grieving in moments. Watching my Momma try to hold a cup yesterday just about sent me crying out of the room. Yet she makes me laugh when she says "Now, you stay right here until I tell you to leave." She's a Bossy Flossie. She creates a deep well of love and devotion when she is singing along as Steve & I serenade her with Come Thou Fount and Amazing Grace.
Maybe you want to wait to visit her until she is in a regular room, that is fine. If you come to visit her in CCU, just realize that she is not the same as you would expect. I don't think she is going to slip through our fingers anytime soon.
To me, she's my Momma. I have watched this woman sick, tired, asleep, awake, happy, and sad. So, this state of her being doesn't bother me greatly. I know her smell, her facial expressions, and how fast her mind works. She said tonight, "I just want to swing my legs off this bed and walk around it. But I know I can't right now." In her mind, she is doing that task. That is what is keeping her going.
Tonight, I watched her sing along with Steve and I as we sang Amazing Grace to her. These are great moments. These are moments to treasure. These moments are Glenda.
always singing,
tescille
And yet, she is still very present. She knows that the pain meds are creating hallucinations, and that she is running at about 20-30% right now. She knows what time it is, and where she wants you to stand to talk to her. She know the date and where she is, but is beginning to grasp the idea that ICU is lasting longer than she would like. She still makes jokes, sings songs, is bossy, loves prayer, and loves to visit with people. She is the same yet different.
I feel like I am grieving in moments. Watching my Momma try to hold a cup yesterday just about sent me crying out of the room. Yet she makes me laugh when she says "Now, you stay right here until I tell you to leave." She's a Bossy Flossie. She creates a deep well of love and devotion when she is singing along as Steve & I serenade her with Come Thou Fount and Amazing Grace.
Maybe you want to wait to visit her until she is in a regular room, that is fine. If you come to visit her in CCU, just realize that she is not the same as you would expect. I don't think she is going to slip through our fingers anytime soon.
To me, she's my Momma. I have watched this woman sick, tired, asleep, awake, happy, and sad. So, this state of her being doesn't bother me greatly. I know her smell, her facial expressions, and how fast her mind works. She said tonight, "I just want to swing my legs off this bed and walk around it. But I know I can't right now." In her mind, she is doing that task. That is what is keeping her going.
Tonight, I watched her sing along with Steve and I as we sang Amazing Grace to her. These are great moments. These are moments to treasure. These moments are Glenda.
always singing,
tescille
The effectiveness of a good nurse is amazing. Mom's body is adjusting to new blood and working on 1 kidney, but she has been too active mentally. Not enough mental rest, the day nurse says, so we shoo'd the morning visitors out and let her sleep through the day. Ahhh!!! She was able to get some rest today due to a great respiratory therapist and good, bossy nurse who is able to stand up to Mommma's demands. Good, Better, GREAT!!! Sleep!!! Physical therapy is now the next hurdle - we cannot have atrophy - we must have activity in the muscles. Especially the hands.
Pray for comfort and Mom's responsive nature to the demands of the medical team. They are fully cognizant of her independent nature and the fact that she lives alone. Their goal is for her to get back to that level of living. Great medical team!
always singing,
tescille
Pray for comfort and Mom's responsive nature to the demands of the medical team. They are fully cognizant of her independent nature and the fact that she lives alone. Their goal is for her to get back to that level of living. Great medical team!
always singing,
tescille
Claudia Jones shared this with me yesterday, saying that it was a description of Mom.
Psalm 112 (New Living Translation)
1 Praise the LORD! Happy are those who fear the LORD. Yes, happy are those who delight in doing what he commands. 2 Their children will be successful everywhere; an entire generation of godly people will be blessed. 3 They themselves will be wealthy, and their good deeds will never be forgotten. 4 When darkness overtakes the godly, light will come bursting in. They are generous, compassionate, and righteous. 5 All goes well for those who are generous, who lend freely and conduct their business fairly. 6 Such people will not be overcome by evil circumstances. Those who are righteous will be long remembered. 7 They do not fear bad news; they confidently trust the LORD to care for them. 8 They are confident and fearless and can face their foes triumphantly. 9 They give generously to those in need. Their good deeds will never be forgotten. They will have influence and honor. 10 The wicked will be infuriated when they see this. They will grind their teeth in anger; they will slink away, their hopes thwarted.
Thank you, Claudia.
always singing,
tescille
Psalm 112 (New Living Translation)
1 Praise the LORD! Happy are those who fear the LORD. Yes, happy are those who delight in doing what he commands. 2 Their children will be successful everywhere; an entire generation of godly people will be blessed. 3 They themselves will be wealthy, and their good deeds will never be forgotten. 4 When darkness overtakes the godly, light will come bursting in. They are generous, compassionate, and righteous. 5 All goes well for those who are generous, who lend freely and conduct their business fairly. 6 Such people will not be overcome by evil circumstances. Those who are righteous will be long remembered. 7 They do not fear bad news; they confidently trust the LORD to care for them. 8 They are confident and fearless and can face their foes triumphantly. 9 They give generously to those in need. Their good deeds will never be forgotten. They will have influence and honor. 10 The wicked will be infuriated when they see this. They will grind their teeth in anger; they will slink away, their hopes thwarted.
Thank you, Claudia.
always singing,
tescille
Monday, November 16, 2009
Monday is a busy day at the hospital - you get to see everyone in action. Doctors making rounds, pharm D's training each other, case managers asking questions, physical therapists making you move, and lots of visitors.
Many people visited today: Tom & Caroline, Linda P., Sharon T., Janet N., Carolyn B., Claudia J., Bob B., Melissa E., David G., Ronny J., Chuck & Jacob. It was a very social day. She wants to do more than she is physically able to do.
We'll call today Cranky Day - we all have them, don't we? Today was that day for Glenda. The med staff is making her do more to be active. Sit up on the bed, hold her water cup, raise her arms, use her legs to move when shifting on the bed....And her incision causes quite a bit of pain in the midst of it. She does not like to be told that her visitors have to leave, her blood pressure spikes up when she asks "BUT WHY?" She loves when her visitors pray for her. But she doesn't understand why she can't have what she wants immediately - ice, covers off, fan on, pain pump in hand, ice, water, ice, etc., etc., etc.....Meds + pain + exhaustion + movement = cranky. Those days have to happen.
Tonight, after Melissa left, I just opened the hymnal (it's her own personal GREEN Baptist Hymnal, go figure) and began singing. She sang along with me. At one point, I began singing What a Friend We Have in Jesus and Mom said "No, No, No. Sing His Eye Is On the Sparrow" That one's not in the hymnal - luckily I know it by heart - but she fed me the words as we went along right down to "His eye is on that precious, tiny sparrow". Precious & tiny, she added with emphasis. It was a precious moment. She told me "You can't leave until I say. After the 2nd announcement." I told her that she raised a rule follower, so I would leave on the 1st announcement. She said "No, I've listened, they announce it 2 times!" I sang for about 30 minutes, just flipping through the hymnal and she would talk-sing along with me. It seemed to calm both of us. I finally left about 9pm.
Please pray for Mom's comfort and pray that she will continually be more active. We need to jump the CCU (ICU) hurdle.
always singing,
tescille
Many people visited today: Tom & Caroline, Linda P., Sharon T., Janet N., Carolyn B., Claudia J., Bob B., Melissa E., David G., Ronny J., Chuck & Jacob. It was a very social day. She wants to do more than she is physically able to do.
We'll call today Cranky Day - we all have them, don't we? Today was that day for Glenda. The med staff is making her do more to be active. Sit up on the bed, hold her water cup, raise her arms, use her legs to move when shifting on the bed....And her incision causes quite a bit of pain in the midst of it. She does not like to be told that her visitors have to leave, her blood pressure spikes up when she asks "BUT WHY?" She loves when her visitors pray for her. But she doesn't understand why she can't have what she wants immediately - ice, covers off, fan on, pain pump in hand, ice, water, ice, etc., etc., etc.....Meds + pain + exhaustion + movement = cranky. Those days have to happen.
Tonight, after Melissa left, I just opened the hymnal (it's her own personal GREEN Baptist Hymnal, go figure) and began singing. She sang along with me. At one point, I began singing What a Friend We Have in Jesus and Mom said "No, No, No. Sing His Eye Is On the Sparrow" That one's not in the hymnal - luckily I know it by heart - but she fed me the words as we went along right down to "His eye is on that precious, tiny sparrow". Precious & tiny, she added with emphasis. It was a precious moment. She told me "You can't leave until I say. After the 2nd announcement." I told her that she raised a rule follower, so I would leave on the 1st announcement. She said "No, I've listened, they announce it 2 times!" I sang for about 30 minutes, just flipping through the hymnal and she would talk-sing along with me. It seemed to calm both of us. I finally left about 9pm.
Please pray for Mom's comfort and pray that she will continually be more active. We need to jump the CCU (ICU) hurdle.
always singing,
tescille
Yesterday was one of those days where difficult conversations abound and laughter soothes a worried soul. With Grant in town, we decided it would be a good time to tell Mom her prognosis. She wants us to shoot straight with her. Remember, Glenda Cole has not one ounce of give up in her body. Grant talked to Dr. Scott on the phone at 1pm - it just wasn't the right time. Grant was able to visit with Mom. Pat and Maury Dennis came up to visit for a bit. Then the 3 of us kids went in for a visit with Vince. We ended up just laughing and joking with Mom. She kept telling us that her butt hurt - that bed is not comfortable - so it was cause for much laughter. As we were leaving at 2pm, the doctor came running down the hall trying to catch us before we left. He made a special trip up to the hospital to be with us and tell Mom her prognosis. She took it very well, but still said "my butt hurts."
Her prognosis? I have shared some of it, but not all. Dr. Scott is certain that this cancer will kill Mother. He is very honest, but has wonderful bedside manner. On Friday, he predicted at worst she has 8 months to live, at best 5 years. But yesterday, he told us that the lab results did test positive for the cancer being in her lymph nodes.
Her attitude alone may save her, but her body is fighting against it.
Later, I was with her alone and she said to me "Did I die? Did the doctor say that I died." No. I told her. He didn't say that she died, but she came very close to it during surgery because her blood pressure got so low. I told her that the surgery last 10 hours, she was under anesthesia for 11 hours and that was the reason for the ventilator. I told her that most of the surgery was spent restoring her blood loss. They put 4 units of blood in her body during surgery - that's a lot. She took all of it very well, but I could tell that she wasn't pleased with it.
All in all, she remains in good spirits.
always singing,
tescille
Her prognosis? I have shared some of it, but not all. Dr. Scott is certain that this cancer will kill Mother. He is very honest, but has wonderful bedside manner. On Friday, he predicted at worst she has 8 months to live, at best 5 years. But yesterday, he told us that the lab results did test positive for the cancer being in her lymph nodes.
Her attitude alone may save her, but her body is fighting against it.
Later, I was with her alone and she said to me "Did I die? Did the doctor say that I died." No. I told her. He didn't say that she died, but she came very close to it during surgery because her blood pressure got so low. I told her that the surgery last 10 hours, she was under anesthesia for 11 hours and that was the reason for the ventilator. I told her that most of the surgery was spent restoring her blood loss. They put 4 units of blood in her body during surgery - that's a lot. She took all of it very well, but I could tell that she wasn't pleased with it.
All in all, she remains in good spirits.
always singing,
tescille
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Mom is off the ventilator and breathing on her own. She still has quite a few parameters to meet before they will allow her to leave ICU. It might be a few more days before she is moved to a regular room. Mom is in good spirits and humor. We put her glasses on her today for a bit and she was able to have some ice.
Please come for a visit, if possible. St. Joseph's Hospital Critical Care Unit Room A-ll.
Visiting hours are
5:30-6:30am
9:30-10:00am
1:00-2:00pm
5:30-6:00pm
8:00-9:00pm
Please come for a visit, if possible. St. Joseph's Hospital Critical Care Unit Room A-ll.
Visiting hours are
5:30-6:30am
9:30-10:00am
1:00-2:00pm
5:30-6:00pm
8:00-9:00pm
This morning as I am preparing for the 5:30am visitation, I find myself asking, "What makes Momma so positive, so confident during this tribulation?" It is her faith in God. It is as Mary Margaret S. said to me yesterday "I don't know how people go through this without knowing Jesus." Then the chorus of Mom's favorite hymn started to sing within me.
Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone;
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living
just because He lives!
If you know this marvelous hymn by Bill & Gloria Gaither, think about the 3rd verse. It is true of the marvelous Glenda Cole.
always singing,
tescille
Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone;
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living
just because He lives!
If you know this marvelous hymn by Bill & Gloria Gaither, think about the 3rd verse. It is true of the marvelous Glenda Cole.
always singing,
tescille
Saturday, November 14, 2009
We have completed our first 24 hours of ICU. Hopefully, we only have 36-48 more hours of it. They are taking the ventilator out tomorrow and it should be about 24hrs afterwards that Mother is moved to a regular room.
I made it to every visitation today. It is interesting to be in a waiting room with a room full of people anxious to see their loved one. To talk to them, hold their hand (after we sanitize them, of course), change the channel, or just sit and listen to them breathe. We all have a common purpose - someone we love is in ICU.
Today, Mom was very alert in the morning, but less as the day went on. It seems that her sedation/pain meds have been increased as she is being weaned off the ventilator - prepping for tomorrow morning. I talked to the pulmonologist (the lung machine guy), Dr. Ameen, who was very certain that he would remove the breathing tube sometime tomorrow morning. Mom has been asking for ICE - her throat is so dry. So, I asked her if she wanted me to bring her Sonic Ice. Her eyes got really big and excited. The Doctor asked me "What is so special about this Sonic Ice? I have never heard of it." Sonic Ice - crushed ice in pellet form - so wonderful!!! Her swelling from surgery is reducing somewhat, esp. in her face and core body. Her hands are still very swollen. She wants her socks off, but they are generating circulation so they stay on.
Mom likes the room to be cold and air to be blowing, so the day nurse, Janie, found her a fan. Linda Joy, Phyllis the night nurse, and I cleaned it up tonight - free of dust bunnies.
In the meantime of sitting with Mom in ICU, Linda Joy and I have taken up EZ knitting. I have a blue scarf that is about 14-16 inches so far. Linda Joy is working (frustrated) on a green hat. It may become my 2nd project.
Tomorrow, Grant, Jennifer and the boys will be here for the 1pm visitation. It will be nice to have all 3 of us together again. Mom will love that!
Mom is still fingerspelling everything, but I am sure that tomorrow she will tell us everything we missed. It has been a good day and we have jumped 1 hurdle. Thanks to Ann Forsthoff, Janet Newcomb, Mary Margaret Snodgrass, and Linda Zarnosky for coming to visit today. Thanks to Mary Margaret for praying so mightily over Mom. Thanks to Janet & Linda Lou for just holding her hand. And thanks to Ann for talking about everyday stuff - poetry, gardening, flowers. All of these things matter to Glenda. We hope to see more of you soon. When Mom is in a regular room, we'll post those details here.
always singing,
tescille
I made it to every visitation today. It is interesting to be in a waiting room with a room full of people anxious to see their loved one. To talk to them, hold their hand (after we sanitize them, of course), change the channel, or just sit and listen to them breathe. We all have a common purpose - someone we love is in ICU.
Today, Mom was very alert in the morning, but less as the day went on. It seems that her sedation/pain meds have been increased as she is being weaned off the ventilator - prepping for tomorrow morning. I talked to the pulmonologist (the lung machine guy), Dr. Ameen, who was very certain that he would remove the breathing tube sometime tomorrow morning. Mom has been asking for ICE - her throat is so dry. So, I asked her if she wanted me to bring her Sonic Ice. Her eyes got really big and excited. The Doctor asked me "What is so special about this Sonic Ice? I have never heard of it." Sonic Ice - crushed ice in pellet form - so wonderful!!! Her swelling from surgery is reducing somewhat, esp. in her face and core body. Her hands are still very swollen. She wants her socks off, but they are generating circulation so they stay on.
Mom likes the room to be cold and air to be blowing, so the day nurse, Janie, found her a fan. Linda Joy, Phyllis the night nurse, and I cleaned it up tonight - free of dust bunnies.
In the meantime of sitting with Mom in ICU, Linda Joy and I have taken up EZ knitting. I have a blue scarf that is about 14-16 inches so far. Linda Joy is working (frustrated) on a green hat. It may become my 2nd project.
Tomorrow, Grant, Jennifer and the boys will be here for the 1pm visitation. It will be nice to have all 3 of us together again. Mom will love that!
Mom is still fingerspelling everything, but I am sure that tomorrow she will tell us everything we missed. It has been a good day and we have jumped 1 hurdle. Thanks to Ann Forsthoff, Janet Newcomb, Mary Margaret Snodgrass, and Linda Zarnosky for coming to visit today. Thanks to Mary Margaret for praying so mightily over Mom. Thanks to Janet & Linda Lou for just holding her hand. And thanks to Ann for talking about everyday stuff - poetry, gardening, flowers. All of these things matter to Glenda. We hope to see more of you soon. When Mom is in a regular room, we'll post those details here.
always singing,
tescille
9:30-10:00a Visitation
Janet and Dr. Scott were there when I walked into Mom's room. Dr. Scott - what a sincere man who defines the art of looking someone in the eyes. He is very pleased with Mom's alertness and vitals. She's a fiesty one! She wanted me to stay in ICU with her - Dr. Scott OK'd it, but the nurses won't let that happen. Plus, Mom needs her rest. She fingerspells and it is exhausting.
Mary Margaret Snodgrass brought a breakfast basket this morning. The best breakfast tacos that I have ever put in my mouth!! Thank you so much!
I'll go back at 1pm for the early afternoon visit.
always singing,
tescille
Janet and Dr. Scott were there when I walked into Mom's room. Dr. Scott - what a sincere man who defines the art of looking someone in the eyes. He is very pleased with Mom's alertness and vitals. She's a fiesty one! She wanted me to stay in ICU with her - Dr. Scott OK'd it, but the nurses won't let that happen. Plus, Mom needs her rest. She fingerspells and it is exhausting.
Mary Margaret Snodgrass brought a breakfast basket this morning. The best breakfast tacos that I have ever put in my mouth!! Thank you so much!
I'll go back at 1pm for the early afternoon visit.
always singing,
tescille
I went to the hospital this morning for the 5:30-6:30am visitation. Linda Joy was there as well. When we walked in the room, Mom opened her eyes. The nurse said that she has been awake on/off since midnight, but that she really needs to sleep. Her blood pressure is in a normal range right now. Last night, it was very low.
Mom wanted a pen to write with, but she couldn't hold it. She began fingerspelling everything. That's a blessing and a curse b/c she can communicate with us, but it is difficult to get through it and it makes her very tired.
She is frustrated b/c her throat is dry and she thinks that she has phlegm. The nurse did an phlegm extraction, but nothing came out. So, Mom was not happy b/c we can't get to it. She keeps asking for ICE. She can't have that right now, so another thing to frustrate her.
We read her the prayergrams that have been received at the house and told her all about yesterday while we were waiting on her surgery. There were so many people that came to the hospital yesterday, I had to get the phone out to look at the pictures - glad we took pictures of everyone! I told Mom that we took a picture of her tumor - her eyes got real big. I told her that we sent her iPhone into surgery for that one. She was very surprised. I told that we passed some time yesterday watching super-flexible Linda Adams Prock put her legs behind her head - she got the big eyes again and rolled them!
We talked to her for about an hour. So, I am going back up there now for another visitation.
always singing,
tescille
Mom wanted a pen to write with, but she couldn't hold it. She began fingerspelling everything. That's a blessing and a curse b/c she can communicate with us, but it is difficult to get through it and it makes her very tired.
She is frustrated b/c her throat is dry and she thinks that she has phlegm. The nurse did an phlegm extraction, but nothing came out. So, Mom was not happy b/c we can't get to it. She keeps asking for ICE. She can't have that right now, so another thing to frustrate her.
We read her the prayergrams that have been received at the house and told her all about yesterday while we were waiting on her surgery. There were so many people that came to the hospital yesterday, I had to get the phone out to look at the pictures - glad we took pictures of everyone! I told Mom that we took a picture of her tumor - her eyes got real big. I told her that we sent her iPhone into surgery for that one. She was very surprised. I told that we passed some time yesterday watching super-flexible Linda Adams Prock put her legs behind her head - she got the big eyes again and rolled them!
We talked to her for about an hour. So, I am going back up there now for another visitation.
always singing,
tescille
Friday, November 13, 2009
Mom is in CCU at St. Joseph's. She's sedated until she can breath on her own, which should be sometime on Sunday. I will be as honest as I know my mother would want to be, but also I know that she will be reading this soon. So be prepared....
The surgery was 10 hours and we believe that the last 2-3 hours of it was tumor removal. I truly believe that they did or almost lost her on the table. The doctor was pretty shaken up when he talked to us. Mom lost a lot of blood and it sounded like it was a tough job to restore that loss.
It is Stage IV Renal Cell Cancer, the tumor was fully metastatic and malignant, meaning it has grown to other areas. Dr. Scott did send a lymph node to be tested and there are other spots that they see. This kind of tumor develops its own blood vessel structure, so it can go anywhere and can be difficult to find. As Dr. Scott said, "What this kind of tumor creates is not in the anatomy books." These blood vessels are cancerous and in her renal cells. Thus the name, Renal Cell Cancer. This kind of cancer is typically radio-resistant, and Dr. Scott recommends a pill-driven Chemo treatment. That is to say, once she jumps the hurdle of ICU and getting out of the hospital. She will be in the hospital at least 5 days.
Linda Joy and I visited her in ICU for a few minutes this evening. She looks like my Momma, but she would not be happy. She is strapped down and bound to lots of tubes. I hope that they unstrap her before she wakes up.
This morning, we were both awake at 4am. We got ourselves ready and had some fun moments before 5:15am. We marked her body up with all kinds of stuff "Remove Fat Here" in 3 places. I drew a cartoon face on her belly button and said "Don't cut here". I drew a heart that said "Heart Healthy" and "Shout Out to Dr. Scott & Crew" - fun stuff like that. Dr. Scott loved it. She was really sassy with her pre-op crew - telling the boring med staff that they needed to "get a personality" or that she "liked that girl's personality" (probably b/c the pre-op nurse was not intimidated by mother). She was funny when that monotone anesthesiologist gave the first hit of happy juice for sedation. She told Dr. Scott that he was "Hot".
The day has not been without its laughter and tears. The surgical waiting was a Glenda Cole party - a parade of loved ones - concerned about The Queen. We convinced one of the 2nd shift nurses to take a picture of the tumor after it had been removed. We'll wait till Mom gives us permission to post that pic - it's pretty gruesome looking and you can't see the kidney b/c the tumor just took over. Talking to Dr. Scott was tough for all of us. Marilyn, Claudia, Linda Z, Linda P, Bob, Janet, Vince, Linda Joy, and I were there to ask him questions. Thank GOD for all of them b/c they asked questions that I had never thought of. This cancer will take her life. Please know that Momma is ready, anyday, to go home to the Lord. She has been ready everyday of her life - that's the beautiful thing - death has no sting. She kept saying this morning "I'm ready!" She is. But not without a fight. She just wanted that tumor out of her body, there is still more life to live. We'll update more tomorrow.
always singing,
tescille
The surgery was 10 hours and we believe that the last 2-3 hours of it was tumor removal. I truly believe that they did or almost lost her on the table. The doctor was pretty shaken up when he talked to us. Mom lost a lot of blood and it sounded like it was a tough job to restore that loss.
It is Stage IV Renal Cell Cancer, the tumor was fully metastatic and malignant, meaning it has grown to other areas. Dr. Scott did send a lymph node to be tested and there are other spots that they see. This kind of tumor develops its own blood vessel structure, so it can go anywhere and can be difficult to find. As Dr. Scott said, "What this kind of tumor creates is not in the anatomy books." These blood vessels are cancerous and in her renal cells. Thus the name, Renal Cell Cancer. This kind of cancer is typically radio-resistant, and Dr. Scott recommends a pill-driven Chemo treatment. That is to say, once she jumps the hurdle of ICU and getting out of the hospital. She will be in the hospital at least 5 days.
Linda Joy and I visited her in ICU for a few minutes this evening. She looks like my Momma, but she would not be happy. She is strapped down and bound to lots of tubes. I hope that they unstrap her before she wakes up.
This morning, we were both awake at 4am. We got ourselves ready and had some fun moments before 5:15am. We marked her body up with all kinds of stuff "Remove Fat Here" in 3 places. I drew a cartoon face on her belly button and said "Don't cut here". I drew a heart that said "Heart Healthy" and "Shout Out to Dr. Scott & Crew" - fun stuff like that. Dr. Scott loved it. She was really sassy with her pre-op crew - telling the boring med staff that they needed to "get a personality" or that she "liked that girl's personality" (probably b/c the pre-op nurse was not intimidated by mother). She was funny when that monotone anesthesiologist gave the first hit of happy juice for sedation. She told Dr. Scott that he was "Hot".
The day has not been without its laughter and tears. The surgical waiting was a Glenda Cole party - a parade of loved ones - concerned about The Queen. We convinced one of the 2nd shift nurses to take a picture of the tumor after it had been removed. We'll wait till Mom gives us permission to post that pic - it's pretty gruesome looking and you can't see the kidney b/c the tumor just took over. Talking to Dr. Scott was tough for all of us. Marilyn, Claudia, Linda Z, Linda P, Bob, Janet, Vince, Linda Joy, and I were there to ask him questions. Thank GOD for all of them b/c they asked questions that I had never thought of. This cancer will take her life. Please know that Momma is ready, anyday, to go home to the Lord. She has been ready everyday of her life - that's the beautiful thing - death has no sting. She kept saying this morning "I'm ready!" She is. But not without a fight. She just wanted that tumor out of her body, there is still more life to live. We'll update more tomorrow.
always singing,
tescille
This is Tescille, writing for Mom. She is in the 9th hour of surgery. One of the staff came in about 30min ago to give us some face to face contact. Her blood pressure dropped and they had to give her a lot of blood. The kidney and tumor has been removed, but they are sealing up a small laceration on the spleen (made when they were taking out the tumor). They are pretty positive about her.
We have had quite a parade of loved ones today. We keep taking pictures of people who come through to visit. We'll keep updating as we go. Thank you for the prayers, we're not done yet.
always singing,
tescille
We have had quite a parade of loved ones today. We keep taking pictures of people who come through to visit. We'll keep updating as we go. Thank you for the prayers, we're not done yet.
always singing,
tescille
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Nov 12, 2009
Just had another call from the hospital and they have changed my time again. I have to be there at 5:45 am for pre-op. This is the third change today and if they change it again they will be getting into my nap time. hehe
God Bless you
glenda
God Bless you
glenda
Nov. 12, 2009
I received the report from the cardiologist this morning.... and my heart is in FINE shape. Ticking like the old ticker is suppose too. Their comment was "A very healthy heart". I wonder if I should have said "I told you so"? Nope..... Just giving God the Glory for all things. That's the best way to handle that.
I am suppose to be at St Joseph Hospital in Bryan Friday morning at 9:30 and at this time the surgery is scheduled for 12:00 but that could change depending on other schedules, emergencies etc. So I will hurry up and wait.
A verse that I have stood strong on for many many years is Philippians 4:13..."I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me." We, each of us, can accomplish ANYTHING when we turn it over to the Lord and LEAVE IT WITH HIM. That's my sermon for the day........... and I'm sticking to it.
Have a blessed day!!!
Love ya, Glenda
I am suppose to be at St Joseph Hospital in Bryan Friday morning at 9:30 and at this time the surgery is scheduled for 12:00 but that could change depending on other schedules, emergencies etc. So I will hurry up and wait.
A verse that I have stood strong on for many many years is Philippians 4:13..."I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me." We, each of us, can accomplish ANYTHING when we turn it over to the Lord and LEAVE IT WITH HIM. That's my sermon for the day........... and I'm sticking to it.
Have a blessed day!!!
Love ya, Glenda
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Nov 11, 2009
Sorry I haven't written in several days. The weekend was great. I worked at the office on Saturday and at home on Sunday. Only a little at a time. I tire out easily. My friend, Vicky Eoff and her son came over on Saturday, Sunday and Monday. Jason worked around my house none stop. What a true blessing you are Jason. Things are looking good.
The cardiologist's office called Monday for me to have a stress test run and gave me an appt date of Nov. 16. I told her then she had a problem because my surgery was scheduled for Friday, Nov. 13. She told me I would have to reschedule the surgery because that was the only time it could be done. I told her that she needed to call Dr. Ackerman and Dr. Scott and let them make that decision. She called back shortly and said I was to be at their office at 3:00 pm yesterday and then be back at 7:30 this morning for my test. I just thanked her and told her I would be there both times and I was. I wanted to say alot more than that, but I didn't. Wow! My age has certainly changed some things..... At one time I would have really had a "Come to Jesus Meeting" with her. Just wasn't worth it. The Dr was suppose to read the test and pictures today and I imagine they should call tomorrow about that result. When I have an EKG test, it always shows that I have had a heart attack at some time in my life. But I don't know anything about when that happened. It was first detected when I had the stroke in May,2007. They almost postponed my surgery on my knee replacement last year at this time because it showed up. So they decided that since this surgery is a higher risk that further testing was necessary.
I began eating lighter today and tomorrow I will start the clear liquids and jello for my prep time between now and Thursday midnight. Fun, fun.
Tescille is coming Wednesday evening to be with me and help me with the prep time. She will be here thru my stay in the hospital and when I get home. Grant, Jennifer and the twins will probably come in on Sunday. It will be fun seeing everyone.
Guess that is about it for tonight. I will report after I talk to the Cardiologist. I have already pre-registered at St. Joseph but they didn't know what time I was to have surgery.....or if the lady knew she didn't tell me when I asked.
1 Thessalonians 5:16 says "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." This is my prayer for each of you. We serve a Mighty God! Give Him the Praise and Glory for the privilege of the Joy He gives us and the opportunity of Pray.
See ya later!
The cardiologist's office called Monday for me to have a stress test run and gave me an appt date of Nov. 16. I told her then she had a problem because my surgery was scheduled for Friday, Nov. 13. She told me I would have to reschedule the surgery because that was the only time it could be done. I told her that she needed to call Dr. Ackerman and Dr. Scott and let them make that decision. She called back shortly and said I was to be at their office at 3:00 pm yesterday and then be back at 7:30 this morning for my test. I just thanked her and told her I would be there both times and I was. I wanted to say alot more than that, but I didn't. Wow! My age has certainly changed some things..... At one time I would have really had a "Come to Jesus Meeting" with her. Just wasn't worth it. The Dr was suppose to read the test and pictures today and I imagine they should call tomorrow about that result. When I have an EKG test, it always shows that I have had a heart attack at some time in my life. But I don't know anything about when that happened. It was first detected when I had the stroke in May,2007. They almost postponed my surgery on my knee replacement last year at this time because it showed up. So they decided that since this surgery is a higher risk that further testing was necessary.
I began eating lighter today and tomorrow I will start the clear liquids and jello for my prep time between now and Thursday midnight. Fun, fun.
Tescille is coming Wednesday evening to be with me and help me with the prep time. She will be here thru my stay in the hospital and when I get home. Grant, Jennifer and the twins will probably come in on Sunday. It will be fun seeing everyone.
Guess that is about it for tonight. I will report after I talk to the Cardiologist. I have already pre-registered at St. Joseph but they didn't know what time I was to have surgery.....or if the lady knew she didn't tell me when I asked.
1 Thessalonians 5:16 says "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." This is my prayer for each of you. We serve a Mighty God! Give Him the Praise and Glory for the privilege of the Joy He gives us and the opportunity of Pray.
See ya later!
Friday, November 6, 2009
Nov 6 Report
I saw Dr. Scott Thursday afternoon. He did a cystoscopy and determined that there were no cancerous cells in the wall of my bladder or urethra. Praise the Lord for that. He was very pleased also. We looked at the MRI and it looked much like the CT Scan. He did say that the cancer cells had traveled into the aorta but he feels that he will be successful in removing all of it. I really like my Dr. One of the first questions I asked him was "Are you a follower of Jesus Christ?" He looked at me funny and said, "Well, Yes I am", I said "GOOD". He said what if I had said "no". I told him "then I would have been out of here and we would have found a Dr who was a believer." He just grinned.
Yesterday while he was doing the procedure, my cell phone rang over and over again. He said, "your phone sure rings alot." I told him "Yep, I have a large group of friends praying for me". And I looked him straight in the eye and I said,"You need to know that I am praying for you! I'm praying for your nurses and assistants and the people at the hospital but mostly Im praying for you and your skill." He got a tear in his eye and said,"Im praying for you too."
That was really cool. I told him he would have a big group to answer to the day of my surgery. Things are going good. I feel great.
I hope everyone will keep on praying. I treasure your prayers. God is so good. He is the Divine Physician.
Yesterday while he was doing the procedure, my cell phone rang over and over again. He said, "your phone sure rings alot." I told him "Yep, I have a large group of friends praying for me". And I looked him straight in the eye and I said,"You need to know that I am praying for you! I'm praying for your nurses and assistants and the people at the hospital but mostly Im praying for you and your skill." He got a tear in his eye and said,"Im praying for you too."
That was really cool. I told him he would have a big group to answer to the day of my surgery. Things are going good. I feel great.
I hope everyone will keep on praying. I treasure your prayers. God is so good. He is the Divine Physician.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Nov. 3, 2009
Today I should have been in Branson MO. But the bus left without me. I just couldn't make the trip even though I sure wanted to go.
I went to the urologist yesterday at 1:30 then my family dr at 4:20. Urologist removed the catheter and talked to me for a bit. Discussing the MRI etc. Then I went to Dr. Ackerman. She had to give them the go ahead for the EKG because it shows the heart attack that I had that I never knew I had. Every time I have surgery it shows up. She said I might have to go to a cartologist for him to read it for sure.
Then today, I had the MRI and I will see the Urol. on Thursday for him to tell me the outcome of that. Thank you Linda Adams Prock for taking me to that appointment. It sure was good to see you.
Tescille and Steve and Grant and Jennifer came Sunday to visit and it was a wonderful day. Grant's twins Mikey and John were here and Chuck brought BaiLee and Jacob over to see the boys. We had a grand time. I was blessed by their visit and hope to see them again soon.
Guess thats all for tonight. I will write more after the Dr's appointment on Thursday.
I went to the urologist yesterday at 1:30 then my family dr at 4:20. Urologist removed the catheter and talked to me for a bit. Discussing the MRI etc. Then I went to Dr. Ackerman. She had to give them the go ahead for the EKG because it shows the heart attack that I had that I never knew I had. Every time I have surgery it shows up. She said I might have to go to a cartologist for him to read it for sure.
Then today, I had the MRI and I will see the Urol. on Thursday for him to tell me the outcome of that. Thank you Linda Adams Prock for taking me to that appointment. It sure was good to see you.
Tescille and Steve and Grant and Jennifer came Sunday to visit and it was a wonderful day. Grant's twins Mikey and John were here and Chuck brought BaiLee and Jacob over to see the boys. We had a grand time. I was blessed by their visit and hope to see them again soon.
Guess thats all for tonight. I will write more after the Dr's appointment on Thursday.
October 31, 2009
Wow! Thanks for all your prayers....... Its really neat to actually feel the prayers. I saw the Drs. this afternoon. We looked at the CT Scan and the tumor is massive and covers all of the left kidney and is traveling from the renal to the aorta. The measurement on the CT was 7" diagnolly by 10" the other way. A MRI is ordered for Tuesday morning to determin how for the cancer has spread. I go back to see the Drs. Thursday and then it will be determined whether my srugery will be in Temple or Bryan. This will depend on how far the cancer has spread. If it is just in the kidney and not far into the aorta then it can be done in Bryan. Otherwise I go to Temple for a larger team of drs. At this point they think this will all happen about the second week in November. This is probably the reason for the lower backachs I have had and sensitive area in that area as well. Also the reason I get so tired walking a short distance. It is causing pressure on the heart and making me tired. We will meet it head on and get the thing taken care of. He said my right kidney appears very healthy and there is no reason I can't live on one kidney.
October 30, 2009
Howdy to all! Grant set up this blog for me so all who are interested can keep up with my progress. Feel free to make comments or ask any questions you are interested in asking. If I don't know the answer............ I will find someone who does.
Some of you may have already received the first two pages, but those of you who have not...This will catch you up.
I have recently had an issue with my kidneys. I had to have a CAT Scan Thursday morning after a week of problems. I see the Radiologist and Urologist today at 3:00. The CT did not show any stones, but did show a "mass in one of my kidneys. (I forgot to ask which one). There is a possibility that surgery will be done this weekend. I don't have any information if the "mass is contained within the kidney. If so they say that it can be removed. If it is cancer and has spread outside the kidney then chemo and /or radiation will be in the decision. I do not hurt. The only discomfort I have is from the Foley and they would not take it out yesterday after the CT. I can live with that. I am going to ask about the possibility of going to Scott & White in Temple to another Urologist if they think there is time to deal with that. After my appt this afternoon, I will send a an update. Prayer warriros...please keep those prayers to God in heaven. God is in total control of the whole situation. I have no fear of the unnown because God does know. An that's good enough for me. I am so thankful for all of you who are praying. Please keep up the good work. I can feel your prayers.
If you are not a believer, I ask that you keep me in your thoughts and I will pray that God will touch your heart as you think of me. Another update after the appt. I love you all.
Blessings, Glenda
Some of you may have already received the first two pages, but those of you who have not...This will catch you up.
I have recently had an issue with my kidneys. I had to have a CAT Scan Thursday morning after a week of problems. I see the Radiologist and Urologist today at 3:00. The CT did not show any stones, but did show a "mass in one of my kidneys. (I forgot to ask which one). There is a possibility that surgery will be done this weekend. I don't have any information if the "mass is contained within the kidney. If so they say that it can be removed. If it is cancer and has spread outside the kidney then chemo and /or radiation will be in the decision. I do not hurt. The only discomfort I have is from the Foley and they would not take it out yesterday after the CT. I can live with that. I am going to ask about the possibility of going to Scott & White in Temple to another Urologist if they think there is time to deal with that. After my appt this afternoon, I will send a an update. Prayer warriros...please keep those prayers to God in heaven. God is in total control of the whole situation. I have no fear of the unnown because God does know. An that's good enough for me. I am so thankful for all of you who are praying. Please keep up the good work. I can feel your prayers.
If you are not a believer, I ask that you keep me in your thoughts and I will pray that God will touch your heart as you think of me. Another update after the appt. I love you all.
Blessings, Glenda
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